I love boating. Canoes, kayaks, pontoons, speedboats, ferries, I love them all.
Sometimes when you are on the water you can look down and see everything you're passing over with crystal clarity. Other times, it is just a shadowy blur, and sometimes you can't see anything at all.
Even when you can't see anything, you're still moving. You are still passing markers.
Sometimes in life you have a goal and you are cruising towards it. You can measure the distance and plot a course. You can figure out how long it will take you, given different variables.
Sometimes you drift and end up somewhere unplanned.
January 1st I filled out our request for a NSW Adoption Information Package. January 2nd, the Captain went to the bank for the $40 handling fee you're required to submit with it. January 3rd I took the dog for a walk to the nearest outgoing postbox (a brisk 10 minute walk) to drop it in.
Just like that, we moved the first bit in the direction of adopting again.
If I look over the edge of the boat we are travelling in, I can't see that any progress has been made. Maybe 2-3-4-5 years from now I'll look back and realize "that was the start".
I definitely feel like I'm crossing over from "can we do it? should we do it?" to "our kids are out there somewhere. They might even be born already and they might be living through some really tough stuff. They need us to get to them."
It seemed like the most important thing to do at the dawn of 2012.
The tiny little actions that lead to great big consequences. Yes, what a fitting way to begin the year, sowing seeds of hope and life for many years to come. We are expectant!
Posted by: quietstream | 06 January 2012 at 04:49 AM
So exciting! Happy for you and the Captain, and the kids too of course!
Posted by: Kelly | 06 January 2012 at 06:48 AM
So excited that this long awaited and probably long coming process is starting. And yes, everything will happen as it should! <3
Posted by: Adelle | 14 January 2012 at 03:43 PM