Right now we're in the middle of a situation that is really terrifying. I'm not going to go into it here until we have some more clarity, but it is one of those things where you start the day in a normal way, and have the rug pulled out from under you so hard, you can't tell which way is up.
I'm working hard to stay calm, maintain a peaceful environment for the kids, and keep on carrying on until there's something I can DO. Right now being calm and praying are my two jobs.
While I've been busy working on those two things today I've been thinking about what an across the board nasty thing fear is. It doesn't matter what the cause for fear is, in the midst of our struggle, any other thing seems less scary than what we're facing. "I'd rather jump into a pit of tigers than be hit with that diagnosis. Financial ruin would be nothing compared to this relationship breakdown. A car accident would be better than this problem my child is facing..."
We're gutted, clutched in the vise grip of fear that is no respecter of persons or situations. It is an opportunist, ready to strangle in any circumstance.
At the same time I'm seeing that there is reason for hope in every circumstance. Pressing back against the fear, I can see how things could be worse, I am thankful that what we are facing isn't some other thing.
How do we press back against fear?
I have been speaking scripture to my spirit, the promises of God over myself and my family. I have been looking at the sunshine, and my children. I have been trying to be here, where I am, and not let my brain take up residence in some frightening "what if" nightmare zone.
Right now that's the best thing I know how to do - choose to live in the grace of today, and agree with God for my future.
How do you fight fear?